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Saturday, July 12, 2008 @ 3:30 AM
I miss my dad, ALOT! i thought i could handle this thing very well. But seriously, i do miss my dad very much. i miss those days when he disturb me by trying to take me to see the clowns. fyi, i hate clowns. I always lie to myself saying that my dad's traveling all around the world. But i know, everything was just a lie. The more i want myself not to think about it, the more the memories of me &dad appears in my mind. I always wonder why my dad always gives my grandmother dream of him. but not me. isit because i'm older now, &he doesn't recognize me? or isit because i'm not staying at my own house? I only dreamt of my dad once. Only once! &i couldn't even see his face in my dream. sometimes i'll even thought that my dad's had been missing for all these years &he must be in some part of the world. but once again, i'm lying to myself. I really do miss him alot. It's been so long since i'd called him "daddy". I miss the carrot cake that he bought. every evening mom, bro &I will wait for him to buy dinner back. I even want to include my dad into my future plans. but i couldn't. I think what i can do now is to not disappoint my dad. I'll work hard &pursue my dreams. I believe that daddy will also give me his support. last thing.. I love my family. I MISS MY DAD~
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